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Wednesday, 21 October 2009

  • I want to kill myself in ANA!!! I just want to be alone! Im so stressed, trying to put things together so that i can stay on my own and be closer to school and where i can be more in control of my diet.

     

    Im so annoyed cause this guy I'm supposed to be renting a place from isnt answering my calls. He is so annoying cause he is always claiming that he loves me and shit. Im so angry i had an angry dream, I'm getting reallly fustrated these days. I've seen that guys are mainly the problem, and the fact that im always broke. I havent been working for three weeks. Im so annoyed with my boss he's been laying me off. WTF? Whats the point of me being a PA when he makes me feel that he dont need me anyway. Arghhhhh

     

    Ive never been so stuck in life, if its not finacial its emotional if its not those its my weight. Sometimes i feel like not being alive cause sometimes life is too much! fuck im so angry, i dont nw what to do!!! Ive also been really ill and that has stopped me from doing a lot with my life.

    I just want to creep into a little hole and never come back! Life's too tough, its too much! And i want to lose this fat! ARGH

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    boots and coat...perfection

    new bed

    out of bed

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    ask me lean

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    crocche

    really

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    Sorry about my depressing weblog, keep strong girlies. Sure, you guys can do better than me!

     

Monday, 21 September 2009

  • morning everybody. At home, didnt go college cause i had taken my laxatives so i waz feeling uncomfortable having to think of me running back nd fourth to the toilet inbetween lessons. Oh snap, i keep dreaming of babies, i hope im nt pregnant cause last time i had it waz unprotected nd im nt with him anymre. Bt im on contreception so im good! Maybe some1 close to me is expecting so u never nw. I plan on going to the shop to go and look for more laxatives nd some soup. And going to the gym and applying for a student gym card. Cheaper rates than the normal rate. Anywho, breakfast i had x2 slices of toast 186cals so far. Will update mre later. X x

Sunday, 20 September 2009

  • fat as ever. My face is so plumped. Im scared to step on the scale, been binge eating my problems away and it hasnt helped. Just made it worse! Im obese and insecure as ever. AND LONELY! I hate this fucked up world, people are full of games and its fucked up. And the guys that are nice are the one's i dont really want. I feel like having some weed! Me & my family have gone abit broke coz of the resetion bt we nt poor still can afford things bt nt as much as we used to. I owe my phone bill like £75, argh! I took Laxatives around something to four. And its 7.53pm and im abit nervous seen as im going college tomorrow :-S... Wìll post tomorrow on my way to college. Take Care Skinnies!x

Thursday, 17 September 2009

Tuesday, 28 July 2009

  • Do you really want to go through this?

     

    Just saw a documentary and they were showing a Gastric Band Surgery. And i really thought to myself. Do i really want to end up like these people? I'd rather go through Anorexia than suffer the after effects of Obesity. Hence the disadvantages to starving your body too much is less visable than feeding your body too much. Everyone can see your FAT. You get more hated for being Fat than Thin. At the end of the day its hard to move around or have a life being FAT. And I just dont want to go down this road!

    I actually felt like i binged today. Its nt bad as usual bt yeah....B-Vege Soup L-x2 Sugar Doughnuts + cocktail fruit D- little kidneys and livers didnt finish my meal anyway.

    Then I took some (Taaadaaaahhhhhh) LAXATIVES!!!!

    Im having some Custard now so Its all Good!!!...:D

    Boy am i going to pay tonight! The stiches are unbearable but what can i do? I need to have this food pass through my system quick before storing any sorts of shit!

    Arghhhhhhh

    Stay Strong Chicks

    Dont wind up like these people!

    Renee Williams

    Gastric Bypass Before After

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  • Hi, My name is Lizzy,and have been on Xanga since Dec 05. I've managed to gain and loose weight through xanga. I used to be in my 150-160's and in May-July i lost all that weight and got up to 133lbs. I started to give up as i was fustrated with the scale and gained all the weight back gradually. I'm know at 143 and aiming to be in my 120's hopefully in the next 2months. I'm aiming on losing 23lbs till by bf comes back from South Africa. He doesnt mind me losing weight. But he just isn't going to know how im going to go about it. I have a good friend for 6 years know and her user name on xanga is DiamondDiet. I've introduced her to xanga as she was there in 06 at school and saw my weight loss. She also used to be in her 110-120's. And i envied her and warned her not to gain weight as it wasnt a nice being fat. She eventually gained it and know we're aiming to loose the weight together. I'm not British but Live in England. I'm South African and been her for 6 years know in June. I hate

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